Man Down.

I have never used my blog as a place to vent; however, I am at my wits end. I am doing this so that people can have an inside and slightly understand where I, and my family, are coming from. Since Mike died we have been broken hearted to say the very least. Every single one of us. I have tried my hardest to move on and accept reality. I have pulled the wool over many eyes as to thinking that I''m doing OK. The truth is I'm not. I am NOT OK. I am sad and confused. And now I'm mad as hell. I have been on a emotional rollercoaster since May 10th. I feel like I am trying to run but there is something that is holding me down. On Saturday my family received word that someone had hacked into Mike's (very private) Facebook account and requested and added friends on his behalf. Some were people he would NEVER have wanted. Our family felt very betrayed and angry. Who would do such a thing? How dare they. At the very same time Mike's ex deleted my sister and I from her friends list. Out of nowhere. Weird. It all opened up wounds for all of us and needless to say, it was a very emotional day.
Today topped it all. I noticed this morning that I had a message on Facebook. It was from Mike's ex's sister, Lindsey, who I have had NO communication with in about 3 years or more. I am only posting her message so people can see what we, as a family, have to deal with. For the record, none of her accusations or assumptions are true. Otherwise, I wouldn't feel comfortable posting this. Here it is:
Lindsey FranckSeptember 28 at 8:29am Report
"you need to grow up...realize mike was with megan h. because she looked exactly like my sister....bet you didnt know before he died they talked and almost went on a date huh? and you treated my sister like shit at the funeral. they were not on the outs. she still loved him he just beat her and didnt support corey until the day he died all he was was a sperm donor and you guys never try to see corey unless its convenient.grow up and act your age.we dont even want corey in any of your lives cuz you are all full of it.youre all in denial. and will fill his head with lies. so you wont get the chance.guess what? he killed himself. no accident. and were all sad about it. im sick of all of you being so rude and stupid. open your eyes. mike was a liar and he was trying to fix his life but he couldnt handle his own family. he was a black sheep to you guys. i think you all disrespected his honor at his funeral. my family took him in for who he was. never asked him to pretend to be anything other than himself. we knew he made mistakes and yet we still loved him. at least were truthful.stay the hell away from my sister im sick of how your words have continued hurting her. shes in enough pain already.and im not responding to anything you say.so dont bother."
Nice, right? I would like to add that this was OUT OF NOWHERE. She also sent messages to Lisa and Sarah. She even called Sarah a "bitch" in her message. Anyone who even slightly knows Sarah knows she couldn't be one if she tried. This disgusting message ripped my heart out. A heart that was already broken. Although I know the things she said are ludicrous, it upset me that someone could be so evil and heartless. What a nasty individual. My family is a GREAT family filled with the most loving and thoughtful people I have ever met. How could someone HATE us this strongly only because they disagree with things we feel? We have never lashed out at their family!
The truth is is that Mike was not perfect. We know that. We have never said he was. BUT, he was a GREAT guy whom we all loved more than life itself. He loved his son tremendously and tried his hardest to take care of him. Yes, he was absent at times because he didn't want to deal with Megan and her family. Good choice? Probably not, but this is the kind of crap he dealt with. I don't blame him for not wanting to deal with them.
Mike is my brother. As adults I have never argued with him. I always had his back in life and I will continue to do so in his death. I cannot sit back any longer and pretend things are OK. This picture that has been painted of his "loving and accepting" EX-in-laws (by themselves) is nothing more than a lie. It's SO very unfortunate that Mike isn't here to defend himself. Instead, we are left to do that and suffer the consequences. As if our family isn't hurting ENOUGH we have classless people to keep kicking us while we're down. I don't know what to do. I guess I am writing this as a cry for help, in all honesty. I am at an ultimate low in my life. I want to get better but people keep opening the wounds. What do I do? What do WE do?
The saddest part is that there is a beautiful little 2 year old boy in the middle of this. He should be surrounded with love by BOTH sides of the family. How do you do that when 1 side is calling all the shots and using him as leverage? I want a relationship with my nephew but they won't let me out of fear "that we will fill his head with lies". I just don't get it. When, if ever, is that precious little boy going to be put 1st? I am at such a loss.